A Blue State of Mind

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I spent 48 years caring about what people thought of me. I'm not spending the rest of my life caring about that anymore!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Me & My Big Mouth

Let me admit something...I'm embarassed that I posted about my weight and my self-loathing. I am challenging myself to not remove the post because I can't believe I exposed myself like that. Immediately after posting I emailed Jeni and told her what I had done and I've kept the post up.
You, my regulars, have been supportive and I appreciate it. I just don't do this kind of stuff. If you need me, I'll be over here, wondering when I lost my mind.


Blogger Jeni said...

You haven't lost your mind kid! You did fine with that post and should be commended for doing it. Obesity is a difficult issue to cope with, to try to work on too because it is so easy to sabotage anyone trying to lose weight -whether it be a mere 10 pounds or 200 -there's always something so enticing, so mouth-watering that comes along to help us to stray -and to graze! When it comes to food, very few of us aren't "little lambs who have lost their way" ya know! And, if by your writing that post, putting it out front for all to see that you are acknowledging this issue and how problematic it can be in so many respects, that it gets someone else perhaps to recognize the same problem too, then think of what a service your message carries with it!
I'm really proud of you for the courage it took to write that piece and to post it then! I'd say you have far from "lost your mind" there my good friend!

December 18, 2007 2:03 PM  
Blogger Dave said...

You haven't fully internalized what Dragon and I said. To spiritualize the issue, none of us will walk before the Lord without sin, if the basis of your embarrassment can be called a sin.

I'm not saying you can beat this; but, if you want to try, have at it. But, I don't want to hear anymore about self-loathing. I understand what you're saying; but, it isn't going to get you anywhere. And besides, if you are allowed such thoughts, while trying to change yourself, where does that leave me, not making an effort to change?

Some treacle, it seems to me that it's worth a shot. If it doesn't work, so be it.

All my best.

December 18, 2007 3:06 PM  
Blogger Meloncutter said...

Its ok. We all have to have an outlet. I make no bones of my soy issues. Even though my soy problems may seem SMALL and INSIGNIFICANT to others, it is not a TINY matter to me. But I perservere and continue to trod along.

I use my blog as a release and as a sounding board. I will admit that not all of what I put on my blog is true, (I actually fart alot more than I let on, and My soy issues are a whole lot worse that I say) but, It does give me psychological release of stress to bring it up on the blog and let it out.

None of us are alone in our addictions, problems and issues. We may encounter the rare few that will ridicule us but I know when the smoke clears they will have more problems that I have. Sometimes just finding a "peer of Problems" and getting that little bit of extra support and interest can go a long way to letting us meet our goals.

Hang in there Kiddo. You have some friends out here.

Later Y'all.

December 19, 2007 3:30 PM  
Blogger sarala said...

I still haven't quite figured out why blogs make us want to do the "true confessions" thing but you have nothing to be ashamed of. It strikes me that you have carried the burdens that life has given you with grace which is what matters most. I hope you find peace, with or without weight loss.

December 24, 2007 7:23 PM  

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